"me thinks i'm lucky i've met you. me thinks, knows, feels that i'm happy when i'm with you.."
not a single soul's awake i bet except me & you. lola, my dog, is sleeping beside me but i was oblivious to that because it's only you i'm thinkin' of.
there's something so great about this. i mean THIS. me & u. us texting each other. there's something so neat about this. we can talk about anything under the sun. in fact, not just under the sun, but under the Milky Way. me & u comfortable. we jive, not a sign of awkwardness. me & u never runnin' out of topics. this is a first for me. and this feels good.
we talked about sex and making love. how they're basically the same but in truth, they're different.
i told you, having sex sounds impersonal, it's like doing the act because of URGE.
making love is different. you do the act because of LOVE.
and so you understood why i said i never had & will never have sex with anyone.and you said you don't wanna have sex with me anymore.
because you wanna make love with me..
because YOU LOVE ME..and you said, in time, ______. and i'm sure i'm really gonna enjoy it.
and you said virginity is no big deal to you. you said virginity is just a pop culture thing.
and our lips are sealed. we know we talked about things considered taboo.
you said you love me. & i said i trust you..
i thought it was just me who noticed it but well.. you always tell me everyday that you love me but i never said those words back to you..
and now you're asking me a favor, asking me to tell you i love you, too.. & i just can't bring myself to say those words because i thought saying those words because i thought saying those words would mean there would be no hesitations anymore. saying those words would automatically mean na "tayo na".
and you said i'm a bit old-fashioned.
maybe i am because can't you see, if i tell you i love you means we're now a couple. that's how it works, right?
you don't say, okay, now we're a couple. you don't say words you're not sure of. you don't say words like i love you and not mean them. really mean them..
but, oh, the next words you said. i think we're so sweet! you said saying i love you doesn't come out like on the script of a movie. you or i might say i don't love you anymore but it doesn't end there. there's always a sequel to a good movie. isn't that sweet? he thinks this is a movie. & a good one at that!
& i said, "or the next book in a series. now i get what you mean. that's sweet. :) love you!"
there! i said i love you! & yes, i may not have told you this, but i say it now, I MEANT IT!
it put a big smile on your face. you hoped i meant that cause what you said next you really meant it and you said for the nth time that night.. "i love you.."
and i said i feel like kissing you, how your lips would feel even if they're chapped. & kiss you til i sleep. and you said you wanna kiss me too & sleep with me right now.. you mean, JUST sleep, kissing and holding me tight. you said you love me. again.
and i love you too. :)
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